Monday, 27 October 2025
villanelle
Thursday, 1 May 2025
Wednesday, 30 April 2025
penance.
facing a jury
of previous lovers
i hope they remember
me fondly.
some made me bold,
a few made me scared,
some were only around
for a night
or a few hours.
you were all my muses
in your time,
even if i've already
forgotten your name.
your honour i contend
that i am accountable
only for standing up
for myself, and that
my kindness serves only
to highlight their
own misconceptions.
to conclude your honour
i offer up my sacrifices
and take penance in your thoughts.
Tuesday, 29 April 2025
again.
when love is rubbed away
there is a cast of shadows
to greet you.
they inhabit the steam,
singing songs of longing
and insomnia.
what chains must break?
what piece of fate
occurs to make
the light shine?
pulling the moon
into the story
i've been digging holes
and uncovering things,
where the air is pregnant,
and you are born again.
Monday, 28 April 2025
chances.
swallowing the bitter
with the sweet
i carry matches
for starting fires
and magic tricks.
a stronger fate
awaits the penitent,
but to fall in love
with a clown
seems my best/worst
chance of finding
happiness.
i don't know the magic
spell that well so
don't let the
blindfold slip, my dear.
bring me the head
of a snake that whispers,
strip yourself naked
for us all to enjoy.
none of us are afraid
of the dark anymore.
v.
Saturday, 26 April 2025
friday.
friday isn't always my favourite,
grey days come sometimes
on a friday, gloom
sets scenes from my dreams
to play out in real time,
a grotesque theatrical
performance.
in the north
a storm rages,
king tides of the mind
where more than the body
takes a battering.
slam dunked in the spume
it's a friday struggle
to remain
upright.
i take an uncertain lover,
fastidious, anxiety ridden
we ride together
for a time, until
ultimately i grow weary
of his friday idiosyncrasies.
i leave him with scratches
but no dents.
when the angels sing
i try to reply
in a language foreign,
a language of hope
and redemption. i tell
them the unexpected,
that fridays make me
want to go home, and
if only i could find
the right sequence
of events.
i run through my
safe words to comfort me
monday, tuesday
-watch me drop-
wednesday, thursday
-into the next-
friday.
Friday, 25 April 2025
atlas.
silence sounds
a lot like screaming
and by that i mean
your absence
makes a void
so large i have
lost days in it
and by that i mean
i have ghosted
loved ones
in your honour
and by that i mean
i'd pull the burden
of atlas to lose
sight of you.
Thursday, 24 April 2025
ready.
ready to spread
my wings
i am at the
mercy
of the cat.
will he take
the higher ground,
content with
unhunted sustenance?
or will my twitch
itch his featherhairs
enough to make me
entrèe?
he crouches lower,
i am a statue.
he makes that
clicking sound,
i am stone.
we share a
heartbeat
as the sky around us
darkens,
this is it.
and then the
blessing of a
dog barking
releases me from
a cruel twist
of fate.
Wednesday, 23 April 2025
sing.
Tuesday, 22 April 2025
art.
art reflects
but only
if you let it.
sometimes arid,
like the badlands
sometimes lush,
like babylon.
try to stare
unblinking.
tell your art
you will bleed for it
if asked,
chastise your art
like an unruly toddler,
then open your arms
to the unambiguous
love that returns.
promise your art
your first born,
or at least a finger.
Monday, 21 April 2025
rise.
i can't stay around
until you turn
blank eye cold,
i just don't have
that kind of
winter covering.
so i will leave now,
whispering
the mantras of strength
and resilience as
my tears shed
more than salt.
my eyes are not windows
they're oceans,
watch the tide rise.
Sunday, 20 April 2025
okay.
Saturday, 19 April 2025
icecream.
iridescent in my eyes
can't resist you, ever
everytime you call my name
candour leaves the room.
right on up to pussie's bow
excellent, exotic taste sensation
anytime, anywhere, anywhy
maybe i'll have a bowl now.
Friday, 18 April 2025
eventually.
Thursday, 17 April 2025
made.
we are not made of stone,
because every bone
is encircled in
the stars of the ages.
seek relaxation as a way
of maintaining innocence,
seek innocence as a way
of maintaining joy.
seek the ethereal.
ribbons drip, some light relief,
some too dark to face,
trust they always
keep coming.
victories collected
place rungs on
your ladder,
keep climbing jacob,
we're right behind you.
Wednesday, 16 April 2025
of course.
don't put on a talisman
then wonder when
the magic happens.
it doesn't matter
how many secret altars
you worship at
you'll never get
redemption
without crossing
a few thresholds.
philosophy is fine
for the thinkers,
and there's always art
as a chemical imperative,
but of course
the default
is panic.
Tuesday, 15 April 2025
anyway.
inspired by history,
beatings will be
administered daily
to activate lifeforce.
we play wartime orgies
to pretend that we're not
living in endtimes.
"this too will pass" we say
changing the sheets for
the next one.
the rose that is thrown
to the gutter still smells
as sweet and sour
as the lily feigning death,
or the frangipani.
they've cordoned off my
special place in heaven
and hell, judging by
my life so far it could
go either way.
jesus knew that lazarus
would be his undoing,
but he did it anyway.
Monday, 14 April 2025
lament.
i send my orisons
to the ghosts, those of us
now free of our bones
and our muddy feet.
i pray they are
opaque enough
to hold my pleas
in their ether as i watch
them follow convention
to float close to the scene
of their demise.
i ask for the mudane
i ask for the impossible
i ask for my friends and relations
i ask simply to watch.
they tell me
"crush your eggshells,
lest the devil finds you home."
Sunday, 13 April 2025
lament.
the craven angels
send their ferrets
of reconnaissance
north to sentinel
for content.
satellites are for
the spying of
citizens,
their discontent
rises.
with an early start
the bakers lead
the eat the rich
revolution, who
better to prepare
the feast?
four and twenty
blackbirds cry sirens,
the dead don't hear
their eulogy.
Saturday, 12 April 2025
ketamine.
i roll my eyes
to raise my suspicions.
to you trust
is a tourist
who has worn
out all welcome.
to me trust
is the moon
who is
sometimes hidden,
always watching.
Friday, 11 April 2025
incantation.
dance like you're an
animated peanuts character
cry like you're on a
downtown train
laugh like you've been
released from prison
run like the devil's
on your tail.
belch like you've
just had your dinner
sigh like you're
out in the rain
pray like there's
nobody listening
ache like he just
broke your heart again.
Thursday, 10 April 2025
in.
in depth, i am
a shallow puddle
in depth, i am
a lamb
in depth, i am
a balloon exploding
in depth, i am
the slam.
in depth, i am
a drop suspended
in depth, i am
a lair
in depth, i am
taste sensation
in depth, i am
the fair.
in depth, i am
a moon horizon
in depth, i am
a sprite
in depth, i am
a boulder crushing
in depth, i am
the night.
Wednesday, 9 April 2025
Tuesday, 8 April 2025
genie.
Monday, 7 April 2025
fictions.
in a suburban vista
there are things only
seen with your eyes shut.
i've looked once before,
standing on the shoulders
of ghosts now free of their
bones they float past
the scene of the accident.
fly my pretties,
rewrite your fictions
to better suit your narratives.
sirens wail
which upsets the nestlings
and makes them wail too.
Sunday, 6 April 2025
eternal.
it may be the sun
who shows us the way,
but when the darkness comes
the truth seekers will see.
inside the oracle (question everything)
there is a blinding light,
a holy light
where jesus knows that lazarus
will be his undoing
but he digs anyway.
Saturday, 5 April 2025
dandy.
abbreviated senses
fall over themselves
to reach tear ducts
inhale/exhale,
stomp as a way of
release.
you are here.
side roadworks
cause not only
confusion
just
be grateful
there's no fatalities
today.
the planets aren't
aligned or even
talking to each other
right now but
there's no trouble
in paradise
unless you send up
the solar flares.
the theatre of war
is only entertaining
to frankenstein's lover.
you never get
the generals to the front,
oligarchs must remain
ignorant, or at least
blinkered for us to
remain capitalised.
tears are not
the most valuable liquid,
that's ink
to sign the papers.
alternatively...
Thursday, 3 April 2025
crocheted clive.
i begin with the
best intentions,
but the piece
of my brain that
imagines success
has mastered the art
of misrepresentation.
the frogs creep in.
the tangles turn
to order, but only
sometimes. wrangle
your materials in an
almost brutal sense.
you have an audience
remember shirley,
you'd better sparkle.
punch the needle
pull the chain
you'll be okay
precious artifact,
if only i can...
Wednesday, 2 April 2025
burns.
he doesn't burn slowly,
usefully, like a candle,
he burns dangerously
like a cigarette
about to be dropped
on crusty bedsheets,
he burns like red embers
spat from the fire
onto ancient rugs.
he is a dervish, whirling,
living for this moment
and this moment,
and this one.
he is a professor
in the science of
getting nowhere.
he devours all the flavours,
he is the rainbow.
the flags he flies
are not red, they're flaming,
and i am the moth.
Tuesday, 1 April 2025
apollo.
apollo walked
by moonlight
contemplating entropy.
although a king
of increasing power
the snowball effect
of the melting ice,
the fires that close
the gap on heaven and hell,
the ruptures that
the earth endures
make him fear the virus
has finally won.
apollo wept
by candlelight
contemplating entropy.
Saturday, 6 July 2024
stairway to the edge. ripped off stairway to heaven-led zepplin.
it’s gentle at first,
but already it’s haunted.
ghosts float in a medieval parade
and i long to join their dance
but it is too soon, they say
too soon.
following the paths of various pipers
i crave a more diabolical dancer,
one who carries a knife and
flattens his hair. but whiskey don’t
make lucky, and even the madonna
is crying when the rain washes
down the stained glass windows.
the hills get steeper, and louder,
there’s a real build.
the undergrowth makes cover
for the thief, so not everything
can be revealed,
some things must remain hidden
until the arrival of the may queen,
and the drums.
then a passer by asks me “is this
the way to heaven baby?”
cue the electric.
no matter the talisman i carry
it’s less of a caffeine high and
more of a midsommar mania.
the rocks sprout flowers
and the riverbeds flood, a cleansing.
the wonder of it all fills my eyes, as
words that cannot be spoken
must be wept.
things get a little… nonsensical
as the boats dock at the
quarantine island -
they're throwing a party for our souls!
it’s all strobe lights and amulets
and dancing like the world’s on fire,
because it is.
on the edge of everything
there is a sharpness, where
things are felt more keenly.
and that’s where we gather, watching
our island inch
to the edge
of the sharp, flat earth,
and finally
we find
our lady.
we needed you to go to rehab amy. ripped off rehab-amy winehouse.
developing a habit
as easy as
falling down.
you flirt with
danger and chemistry
to make a heady cocktail,
staggering from drink
to drink
to drunk
in an extravagant tango
that you call love.
we needed you to go to rehab amy.
you opened your mouth
and from a place divine
you filled the room
with the furniture of your life,
spinning your heartaches
like fine white linen,
dropping rare gems
like ice into bourbon.
moody blues and bloody ballet shoes
we needed you to go to rehab amy.
you thought that you were
in love with love,
but what you craved was chaos.
sad that the music wasn’t enough,
sad that you failed more times
than you tried - and you did try.
so i get that you’d rather be
drunk than sad but we needed you,
we needed you to go to rehab amy.
now you inhabit
our thin places,
slipping in and out of
our everyday cravings,
singing self destructive anthems
to the loves and losses and alarm bells
that shape us all.
all soul and no body
we needed you to go to rehab amy.
Friday, 5 May 2023
a small sonnet.
we touch lips
and you are ready
my ego slips
but yours is steady.
fingers transferring
your scent to my skin
muscles clenching
deep and within.
hands are claws
and tongues don't care
map my flaws
so they turn to air.
we come together, simpatico
on a rolling stone crescendo.
Saturday, 29 May 2021
days.
insomnia carries
its weight through
my days
dragging my feet
slowing my heart
heavy on my eyes
insomnia carries.
grief weighs
its way through
my days
pricking my nerves
poking at memories
getting my guts
grief weighs.
happiness floats
over my head through
my days
out of reach
visibly pretty
achingly far
happiness floats.
Thursday, 13 May 2021
left.
the grimest
of reapers
doesn't want
you dead,
for him the
satisfaction
lies in your
suffering.
a cast
of shadows
greets you
as you run
but you
can't let the
rapture
catch ya.
aim for the
thin places
the spaces
where the
air is pregnant
& you are
born again.
depleted
but you
can't fight
the devil
with willpower
so acceptance
is all
that's left.
Tuesday, 11 May 2021
cheyenne.
sitting in the shadow of the rockies
it's a long way there.
fog covered mountain, secrets
i'd like to leave behind
here in the shadows.
hands feel like ice
and ice feels like fire
and it won't feel so cold
if you just keep walking.
stopping
lets the chill air catch you
here in the shadows.
keep breathing deeply
the air is much
much thinner here
so catching breath is
mindfulness,
not mechanical.
think of the pioneers
and slip on some sheepskin
listen to the whispers.
because the mountain
knows them by their names
& by their dreams.
dream of steam trains
and ski shoes, try to
pioneer your way out
of the past
of my head
it's not quite white yet
not quite hermit time.
Monday, 10 May 2021
storm.
it's deliciously messy
when cuts cause blood
but not always.
i'll ask you to
send envoys
from another
threshold, because
however harrowing
the daytime
there is still
enormous scope
for the night.
apparently & differently
the scariest step
is out.
when the blues
keep banging
in your head
every step
is pointless,
like a circle.
this time
the storm
stays silent.
Sunday, 9 May 2021
don't
write an anthem
write a prayer
write for the man
who is not there.
write real fast
but reluctantly
embrace the rhythm
that you feel don't see.
don't see colour
don't see race
don't see the nose
that's on my face
don't see the facts
that surround you now
i dream of better
but i don't know how.
Friday, 7 May 2021
coffee
Thursday, 6 May 2021
places.
i wake early to watch
the clouds
as if they were
television.
joined by birds
incredulous
we sing
& we sing
in a voice not quite
melancholy.
i like to find
the thin places,
the spaces between
here
& not here.
someday the rapture
will take me
but for now
i settle for
some other damn
paradise.
Wednesday, 5 May 2021
strips.
it only took
a look
to turn me
into a
somebody
done
somebody
wrong song,
leaving me
bleeding roadside
in a sentimental
way.
we sit
through the
guilty hours
ripping strips
off a reality
rendered over
and nothing
that you say
can make
this bitter
distance
better.
Tuesday, 4 May 2021
didn't.
i didn't see it coming
when he took my hand
on the corner of
underdog & vine,
heartskip romeo
to sweep me
off the street.
so i didn't see it coming,
drunkdriver fast
a car
to sweep me
off the street
& closer to heaven
than a body should climb.
i didn't see it coming,
the gravity slap
that the
the comedown implied.
i was the prima ballerina
in the frantic dance
around the inevitable.
Monday, 3 May 2021
covered.
i'm not in
the habit of
misguided
infatuation, so
what i like most
is your haunting
storm damage
and the easy way
you cover it over
with sarcasm
& substance abuse.
but whiskey
don't make lucky
so i become
familiar with the
quick exit of the
one night stand,
& the cold of the
middle of the
night.
Sunday, 2 May 2021
needs.
"i'll be there soon"
he said
a long time ago.
i stayed long enough
for a spider to spin
a web on me
so that she could
whisper in my ear
"if you need me i'll
be dancing".
Saturday, 1 May 2021
thoughts.
i'm not in the business
of giving things away
but this frown is free,
i made it myself
from found objects
so you see
it has your name on it.
once,
and later on
the needle scratches
words of
ambiguous meaning,
another tattoo
torment.
thoughts, they
waterfall, & the
only time
peace finds a
home here
is when elvis
sings the
blues.
Monday, 8 April 2019
eight
of a bleak city
this is it.
nameless buildings
and strip malls
with too many signs.
the trees are
closing shop for winter
shadows of their
former selves.
sticks and stoned don't
break my bones but
the cold takes
my breath away.
seven
whe you committed suicide,
drinking cup after cup after cup
of coffee too strong for
your heart to handle.
i walk past, trying to remember
the good times, the sane times.
i flick my eyes to the skies
because i don't know where else
to look for you.
time does help but cannot hold
my heart the way that you did,
like a badge on your chest.
i still take my coffee strong
as a lesson from the dead.
Saturday, 6 April 2019
six
our shadows grow
so long
they are almost
out of reach.
you linger,
touch my hand
and say
"there is just
one thing more..."
sound turns hollow
and crickets weep,
but our glory
will live in
the small arrangements.
Friday, 5 April 2019
five
like i'm a man
or something
tall.
i rationalise it as
calculated risk,
but really
i'm just playing craps
with the fates
janine balding
sally roethe
le ngoc le
walking with a
confidence that
i only have
sometimes
their stories roll
through my head
mary freeman
teah rose
simone fraser
i brace,
form a fist
with my keys
caroline willis
gail winner
ros thompson
because society
ain't gunna
fix this
maria korp
katrina and cynthia miles
jill meagher
but i still hold
my head high
caroline matthews
margaret tobin
rebecca wilde
and keep walking.
Thursday, 4 April 2019
four
we discuss the value
of nature, then
decide to go there.
breathing deeply,
hoping this
moment
is strong enough
to hold us
we fold into
the undergrowth.
with blindfolds on
we can quench
our other senses,
while in between
thunderclaps
my heart has time
to skip a beat.
there is no fruit
left uneaten
until the
pixies sing a
love song that
goes too long
and we know
it is time to get out.
Wednesday, 3 April 2019
three
where deep humans
take refuge from a
world too shallow
to comprehend.
the light doesn't
shine here.
nothing shows
or grows or is
nurtured in
this underbelly,
but comfort can
still be found.
Tuesday, 2 April 2019
two
park benching with coffee,
and although i don't expect it
we both start crying.
it's not so much the
words we say
as the deep sense of
hopeful ennui
we both share.
we feel intrepid,
and although the heart
that you give me is
cracked and bloody
it is whole.
Monday, 1 April 2019
one
left out of
a documentary
i hit the road.
shale shines like
second hand silver
beneath my feet
& with the wind
at my back
there's nothing
but black tar madness
showing me the way.
it's a dusty shuffle,
sometimes clinging
to the earth
for fear that gravity
and memory
will fling me to realms
too sacred for
a waif like me.
birds that are
nameless
call my name,
call me home.
Sunday, 6 May 2018
diabolical logic.
but not never.
you promised me forever
but then you forgot.
i understand but
i have to think about the burning.
did you ever wake up
in the middle of a nightmare
that started as a love story?
too many bandages
for one person to carry.
the skulls are always smiling,
the boughs of the trees hang low
over the grave that i am
still compelled to visit,
enforced meditation,
not very zen.
driven to sit on the mound
and the cross
think of nothing
think of nothing and bones
think of nothing and his bones.
when we first buried him
my musings were grotesque,
walking corpses in
coffee shops and
everywhere the stench of lillies.
shudders would
rip and claw at my body
and only the sleep of
the dead would
quiet those nightmares.
i lit candles
and said affirmations,
turned to traditional ways.
i let him go, but
not really.
my visits shorten
or lengthen
depending on need.
i come here for the diabolical logic
and when i am done with the
pretty colours i'll move on.
Friday, 13 April 2018
developing.
as easy as
falling down.
so i make my bed and
gnaw the inside of my mouth,
lying you myself
that this will ever end.
Tuesday, 10 April 2018
between.
and the sea
you'll find me.
i come here for the calm,
the medicinal waves
changing the way that i think
from chaos to
a new kind of archetype.
i come here for the salt,
for when my lungs scream
their questions that only
the sky can answer
the salt air soothes and mends.
i come here to be
aware but not hypervigilant,
sedate but not sedated,
contained but not boxed in.
between the scrub
and the sea
you'll find me.
gone.
but it was the wine.
the effect was the same,
he was absent, vacant,
lost to her.
everything they built
deconstructed slowly,
crumbling with every
dreadful headline
until he was
washed away.
Sunday, 8 April 2018
pantoum.
and i show you i can take it.
there are flaws in our brushstrokes
but still the magic happens.
and i show you i can take it
beading sweat and clenched teeth
but still the magic happens.
there is power in our fragility.
we don't look too closely because
there are flaws in our brushstrokes.
i show you what soft feels like
you show me how strong you are.
Saturday, 7 April 2018
while the moon watches.
through the window
while i flirt with danger,
and the drop.
noise turns hollow
and crickets weep
from the pain
of dawn breaking.
i let the last of the darkness
swallow me
as i contemplate
the necessary evil
of revelling in un-wellness.
i find it serves a higher purpose,
a game to scare the shit
out of myself
and roll over into normal.
Friday, 6 April 2018
my superhero.
with the voice of kathryn hepburn.
i'd ride an invisible steed and
together we would map
the bleak landscape.
so wherever there was
a poor orphan child
or some damn selfish bastard
to rescue
we'd be there.
i wanna pull myself up
by my bootstraps
just like jane eyre.
i would still have my moments,
but once the cape goes on
i am a superhero
like jane eyre.
i wanna rise from the ashes
because of jane eyre.
i don't seek redemption
just a choice.
what would jane eyre do?
stay on the bus sista,
ride your own journey.
Thursday, 5 April 2018
every step.
she steps on no cracks
and every tread has purpose.
when she is unwell
her footsteps tell
a different story.
they take tangents
and cross wires
because every tread is
black hole madness.
stasis
is useful
only some of the time.
and choice
is a luxury
reserved for others.
Tuesday, 3 April 2018
heart of the matter.
caught in my throat.
so i drop into a dreamstate
(because this poem is not about me).
and with my right hand
reach
past
my teeth
and over my tongue,
slip
through
my gullet
and touch my fingers on
the heart of the matter,
which is that i am lacking.
Monday, 2 April 2018
days.
like the day daddy
sent mummy a love letter
in the shape of a crowbar.
every day hurts
like the way the calipers
clamp to my thighs to support
my broken spine legs.
some day this will end.
like an angel calling from
a very dark place i will be gifted
merciful oblivion.
Sunday, 1 April 2018
corny point.
sharp, and to the point.
the symbiosis of touch,
too much.
the chemistry of music
when it hits my brain.
the omnipotence of nature,
naturally, it soothes me.
the openness of the tribe,
in numbers we are strong.
five points fall into one and if i have to choose
i'd choose forward,
away,
to you.
Thursday, 16 November 2017
fragile
watched the closing credits roll.
